I used to be a Police/Fire/911 Dispatcher, but had to quit because it nearly made me suicidal. I have nightmares about a few calls I took where the caller killed themselves, shot someone, or passed away on the phone with me. I still can’t listen to a phone ring without having a mild panic attack. I’m fairly sure it’s a form of PTSD but I’m embarrassed. there are soldiers out there that deserve help more than me. I sometimes wait until my fiance goes to sleep, and I will cry for hours. It’s hell. I don’t think I deserve to be diagnosed with this, as I was never in any real danger.